Friday, October 29, 2010

Still in Taipei... the next morning

Finally gotten around to writing part 2. We woke up to a very windy and rainy Taipei. We even asked the reception if we can go out and the staff advised us to stay indoors. However by 1pm we were getting hungry and restless, so we decided to venture out into the wild. There are very few people on the streets. Most establishements were closed. And bringing an umbrella was futile. We even had to hide behind pillars when the wind was just too strong. Here we are waiting in front of Taipei's main station.


















This old man tried to fight the winds. See no use for the umbrella. We all dressed down just in case the subway was closed. We all crossed our fingers it was open since our stomachs were already growling.
























We were quite relieved to see this bakeshop open the second we stepped into the station. There were also other shops open, like this umbrella stand. The prices were quite similar to what we have here in Manila.



















Anyway we were all looking for a good place to eat. One thing I noticed was the Taiwanese have a lot of Japanese restaurants. The reason why will be revealed to me in the next few days. So we ended up eating Japanese food as our first real meal in Taipei. Funny isn't it? We ordered a set meal, which cost us about 200NT. It consisted of Tonkatsu rice toppings, Chawan Mushi (steamed Japanese egg custard) and a beef noodle soup with bean sprouts. Pia and I shared the meal since it was big enough for two. We added additional 20NT for the bottomless soda.



















We then decided that we were brave enough to check out if other places were open and we needed to have money changed. Since we were first time MRT riders, we first bought single journey passes to Zhongxiao Fuxing, the third station from the Taipei Main Station. Our goal was to have money changed first at the Sogo Mall. But it was closed. The underground mall was open however and this are some of the stores we found. I fell in love with the Hello Kitty hand carry bag. It was calling my name...I had to go back.

























But they pulled me away and said we shall just try going to Wu Fen Fu Market near the Houshanpi station. And when we arrived there the wind was howling still. The streets were almost deserted. But we walked around anyway.






















It looked like everything was closed but then we saw some bright lights across the street And we rejoiced. Wu Fen Fu market was alive and some stores were finally open. Then shop we did.








































































There were lots of clothes, bags and shoes to choose from. It was overwhelming. And all this on the first day in Taipei. We had to stop ourselves from spending too much because we haven't even been to other markets and other shopping places. What we enjoyed browsing in was this huge store filled to the brim with bags, clothes and shoes. What to choose, what to choose!



















Then Eve, decided that we should try visiting another shopping area, Ximending. We had to take the blue line MRT again and got off at Ximen Station. Taipei was slowly coming back to life and there were tourists like us roaming the streets. The stores were also officially open. It was like Myeongdong in Seoul.






































There were a lot of interesting store fronts like this building below. There were also Westernized restaurants there. We were all famished and decided to eat at Risotto. It's a cutesy restaurant with a golden retriever as its mascot. We thought it was unique at the store we ate in but apparently all their branches had golden retrievers in front.
























































I ordered bacon and cream risotto while Pia had a tomato and beef risotto. We also ordered apple soda. It was a nice meal and with the cute and light ambiance it was a good experience for me and my sister. What was hard though was communicating with their non-English speaking staff.







































Our (me and Pia) major agenda in Ximending was finding this huge Japanese magazine store. Pia and I are a sucker for Japanese and Korean fashion magazines so we just had to find it! Instinct told me to turn left and we found it on one try. It was called Magazine Freak and we absolutely freaked out over a gazillion of titles.


















After buying about four magazines (it weighed a ton), we met up again with the other girls and they took us to taste a Taipei specialty dessert, shaved ice. One thing weird about their shaved ice cafes/stores is that they have ampalaya decors. Pia and I decided to share one order again and we got Strawberry and Mangoes for 120NT. So we had a cold dessert on a cold day. LOL. After being barely able to walk back to the train station, we all agreed to call it a day.



























































Oh I forgot to mention we stopped by the Hello Kitty Sweets Cafe, since it was within the area of the Zhongxiao Fuxing station but it was closed. So guess what we did on day two? :)

Monday, October 18, 2010

Visiting Taiwan - Touchdown in Taipei

I almost backed out of seeing Taipei. My editing sideline stopped sending documents which threw me off my budget. With a little help from some angels, I was finally able to scrape something up to enjoy the trip with some friends from ABS-CBN and my sister.

The main agenda of the trip was to visit the Hello Kitty Hotel in Kaoshiung and of course the Hello Kitty Sweets Cafe in Taipei. However, the schedule changed because of a typhoon! Our Cebu Pacific flight arrived in Taiwan at around 12:30am, a bit earlier than expected. It was a shakey landing because of the typhoon and the taxi we rode to Taipei was zooming through the empty streets. Probably scared to get caught in the deluge.

The airport was being renovated, we sort of found it just so-so. Boy band Farenheit was this season's celebrity ambassadors for Taiwan. Some years ago it was F4. :)



















We stayed at Keyman's Hotel (No.1, Huaining St. , Zhongzheng District, Taipei ), near the Taipei Main Station. It was a decent hotel. We had to transfer rooms 3x though because of late bookings and complications because of the storm but their staff was friendly and patient with us. Here's the first room we stayed in, it fit 7 people all in all. We watched the weather news on the big flat screen TV.



































My sister and I didn't eat dinner so we were hungry when we got to the hotel. Since everything was closed due to the storm, we just dropped by the friendly Family Mart next door. We bought an egg salad, Hello Kitty cupcakes (of course), a not-so-yummy bun, a bottle of Minute Maid Pomelo and mineral water. We didn't notice bottled water was free at the hotel.



















We were all hoping the storm would just pass or disappear quietly but it was a real big one. A few hours later we woke up and we knew, our schedule for the day will have to be redone. The view outside our hotel at around 10AM. It was pretty dreary and windy day. So what did we do on our first day in Taiwan? Will tell you in my next post :)












Wednesday, October 06, 2010

sad thoughts

Maybe I'm not special enough.

If I disappear maybe he wouldn't even notice.

Sunday, October 03, 2010

Back tracking

Last night, I was watching Channel V and was very happy to see and hear 90s music playing. So I compiled some favorites today and with some help from friends was able to come up with a decent playlist. Not exactly 90s only though, bordering on 2000 too. Mga after graduation na songs din. LOL. Some artists I put multiple songs in, some just one, nakakalito kasi sa dami. The other songs I remember singing in the old UP MCO tambayan. It was the good old days. Good times. :)

1. Hit Me Baby One More Time - Britney Spears

2. Love Doesn't Hurt To Feel Good - Atomic Kitten

3. Under the Bridge - Red Hot Chilly Peppers

4. Wannabe- Spice Girls

5. Move Over (Generation Next) - Spice Girls

6. Quit Playing Games With My Heart - Backstreet Boys

7. Tearing Up My Heart - Nsync

8. Genie in A Bottle - Cristina Aguilera

9. Have You Ever - S Club 7

10. Do You Really Want Me - Robyn

11. Girlfriend - Billie

12. Sometimes - Britney Spears

13. You Get What You Give - New Radicals

14. What Can I Do - The Corrs

15. Runaway - The Corrs

16. Barely Breathing - Duncan Sheik

17. Stay - Lisa Loeb

18. Linger - The Cranberries

19. I Don't Wanna Wait - Paula Cole

20. Hip Hop Hurray - Naughty By Nature

21. Each Time - E-17

22. You Were Meant For Me - Jewel

23. Only Wanna Be With You - Hootie and the Blowfish

24. Say My Name - Destiny's Child

25. Fantasy - Mariah Carey

26. Dreamlover - Mariah Carey

27. Losing My Religion - REM

28. Waterfalls - TLC

29. The Boy is Mine - Brandy and Monica

30. Try Again - Aaliyah

31. One - U2

32. I Want You to Want Me - Solid Harmonie

33. Black Coffee - All Saints

34. Say You'll Be There - Spice Girls

35. Candy - Mandy Moore

36. Summergirls - LFO

37. Everybody - Backstreet Boys

38. Sailing - NSync

39. Never Had A Dream Come True - S Club 7

40. Unbelievable - EMF

41. Insane in the Membrane - Cyrpress Hill

42. Bitch - Meredith Brooks

43. Believe - Cher

44. Tennessee - Arrested Development

45. Fly - Sugar Ray

46. Who Will Save Your Soul - Jewel

47. Loser - Beck

48. MMM Bop - Hanson

49. You Ought To Know - Alanis Morisette

50. Jeremy - Pearl Jam

51. Creep - TLC

52. No Scrubs - TLC

53. Time After Time - INOJ

54. Missing - Everything But The Girl

55. Say What You Want - Texas

56. Sober - Jennifer Paige

57. I Love You Always and Forever - Donna Lewis

58. Buses and Trains - Bachelor Girl

59. Candy Everybody Wants - 10,000 Maniacs

60. Cornflake Girl - Tori Amos

61. Sweet Soul Revue - Pizzicato Five

62. I'll Be Missing You - Puff Daddy

63. Gangsta's Paradise - Coolio

64. Smooth - Rob Thomas and Santana

65. Song 2 - Blur

66. Don't Speak - No Doubt

67. Just A Girl - No Doubt

68. Tonight Tonight - Smashing Pumpkins

69. Wonderwall - Oasis

70. I'll Be There For You - The Rembrandts

71. Stars - Simply Red

72. The Sign - Simply Red

73. No Rain - Blind Melon

74. Torn - Natalie Imbruglia

75. Lovefool - The Cardigans

76. Truly Madly Deeply - Savage Garden

77. Im Too Sexy - Right Said Fred

78. The Freshmen - Verve Pipe

79. Closing Time - Semi Sonic

80. My Loving (you Ain't Gonna Get It) - En Vogue

81. That's The Way Love Goes - Janet Jackson

82. Back For Good - Take That

83. Love Sensation - 911

84. Where Have All The Cowboys Gone - Paula Cole

85. Cest La Vie - B-Witched

86. Cryin- Aerosmith

87. Baby Baby - Amy Grant

88. Damn I Wish I Was Your Lover - Sophie B Hawkins

89. This Used To Be My Playground - Madonna

90. Angel - Sarah Maclachlan

91. It Must Have Been Love - Roxette

92. You're Still The One - Shania Twain

93. Barbie Girl - Aqua

94. Wishing on The Same Star - Girlfriends

95. Too Many Walls - Cathy Dennis

96. I'll Never Get Over You Getting Over Me - Expose

97. Step By Step - New Kids on the Block

98. Plush - Stone Temple Pilots

99. Smells Like Teen Spirit - Nirvana

100. All I Want - Toad the Wet Sprocket

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Stuck in my head like a melody

You can be anywhere you wanted
But you decided to be here with me
No coincidence, it was meant to be.


:)

Sunday, September 12, 2010

One week to go

Thoughts...

-Taipei is looming and yet I still have to figure out where I'm gonna get my spending money there.

-It's a long weekend yet I'm wasting it by vegetating on the couch watching Project Runway 8 and Top Chef 7.

-I'm confused as to why I have no money.

-As much as I wanna get pissed about him ignoring me, I choose to just entertain myself.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Surprise

And I was indeed surprised.

I really didn't want to get my hopes up that he'd show up at the door. Last Tuesday's upset was a big one for me so I didn't want to feel that way again.

Popay and Bits were the ones who were pretty optimistic about it.

And I cried. It was because I really missed him that much.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Do you know...

you're hurting me with the silence?
with every minute that passes of no words, no sounds
it emphasizes my unimportance in your life?

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Another quote

Saka hindi naman kailangan ng maraming tao para makabuo ng mundo e. Minsan, isang tao lang ang kasama mo, buo na ang mundong kailangan mo habambuhay. --- Bob Ong

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Sniff

I am officially sick today. But I still have to go to work. I need the money. Sigh. Sniff.


And you didn't call. when you said you will. :(

Thursday, August 19, 2010

One hour

We only had an hour to see each other.

And I'm happy I made the Krispy Kreme monster happy.

Love love love. :)

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

:(

My face is all blotchy. my eyes are all red. got crumpled and wet tissues on my desk. And I want to go to the bathroom and pee. But they would see that I have been crying so I'll just sit here a little while longer.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Waaaah

After spending almost three weekends with Ian, I am having a withdrawal.


I miss him.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Hahaha

Spent quality time with Ian over the weekend.

The part I like best was when we laughed together. And we laughed a lot.

Love. :)

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Sulky

"There's always a little truth behind every 'I'm just kidding', a little emotion behind every 'I don't care', and a pain behind every 'It's okay'."

Saturday, July 17, 2010

I feel fat

After shedding almost 30++ pounds over the past year, i think im getting fat again.

I've been eating non stop because of this certain person.

He's been keeping me company these past few days and he's stuffing my face endlessly.

and doing other things. that keep me smiling constantly :)

It's hard to keep the weight down when you're feeling this happy.

I think I need to go to the gym.

Monday, July 12, 2010

T_T

I'm supposed to be feeling happy today, but how come I feel like crying?

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Stolen shots

Taken by Ian. Saturday lunch. My two-day birthday celebration.

Masaya ako alam mo ba yun ha? Kahit tinatawag mo akong chow chow. Lolz.

Friday, July 02, 2010

Warm and toasty...

...ears. I want one kahit walang winter sa Pilipinas.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Adjusting

I'm always thinking what he's up to.
I don't wanna be a demanding girlfriend.
But I'm not used to silence.
Get over my fears.
I guess we are both adjusting.
And I have to keep my feelings from overwhelming him.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Friday, June 25, 2010

Late lunch

"Can we see each other for lunch?"

I was in a sulky mood. And Ian instantly knew I was in a sour mood. We usually joked about meeting for lunch but it was not really possible me working in Quezon City while he worked in Alabang. But I was taken by surprise when he said he was serious.

He had a teambuilding to go to but he traveled for an hour and a half to be with me for three hours then an hour and a half again back to his office.

I just felt sad today. I even felt like crying when I sat down in front of my desk this morning. But being with him has blown the dark clouds away. I appreciate all that he has done to cheer me up today. I am truly blessed to have him now in my life.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Love has found me

Ian, you make me happy. :)

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Six months...

into 2010. how time flies.

someone said i should write here more often.

so what should i write about today?

what has happened to me in the last six months...

well, i think i feel better now.

i think a year was enough for me to heal.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Hi...




This is me now, forcing lil ol' Simba the puppet to kiss me.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Imagine this

The words ‘I don’t know’
Echoed in my head
Like the sound of silence
When I dialled your number
Or wrote you a letter
Everytime I close my eyes
To sleep
I die countless deaths
While feeling hot tears roll down my cheeks
Reminding me that I am still breathing
Before the alarm sounds
I roll out of bed to tell myself
I am awake but I really need to dream
My fingers fly
Writing you words of sorrow and love
Yet my heart plummets
Remembering your empty promises
Calling myself stupid
For thinking that maybe
Just maybe
There is something left of us.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

I choose to celebrate the Chinese New Year...

instead of Heart's Day.

According to Cherry, I need to find a 'dog friend' as a lucky charm for the year of the tiger. So where do I look for that?

Things with the new guy aren't working out. He's a nice guy and all but the heart's not really into it. I don't want to settle. I hate that.

I've met a lot of new friends lately. And this one special person. He makes my heart beat fast. But we're friends. Very good friends. It's been sometime since I've had this kind of friendship. Hope it lasts for a long time.

So, no heartaches, no heart breaks this V-day.

Hope you don't get yours all too excited or too cracked up.

I'm gonna mope around work tomorrow. Let's see what happens.

Tikoy anyone?

Tuesday, February 02, 2010

new dilemma

New year, new guy, new dilemma.

a super nice guy. however, he doesn't meet your standards. you go out. you know he likes you. but you don't feel the same. you think hard. and then again.

if you say yes, could you be settling? if you say no, you turn out to be a villain. and here i thought conventional 'ligaw' will be much, much easier.

Monday, January 11, 2010

hello

well it's the new year and i'm down with allergies. and i realized that i'm allergic to apples. which is quite sad. i'm asleep most of the time since sunday and i hope i manage to go to work again tomorrow.

everything's quite complicated with guy e now. and i think the end for us is near. sad yet maybe liberating.

i wish i can find him soon. loneliness just gets the better of me sometimes.

Monday, December 21, 2009

Weird

I wonder if it's with the Christmas season fast approaching or if this is an extention of my "emo" phase which started since last April.

There are instances when I'm supposed to be happy, yet I am feeling sad.

Like right now. I should be feeling good about myself but I feel like I shouldn't have done what I just did.

No regrets? I do have regrets.

Sunday, December 06, 2009

My own treasure map of boy-lets

Hmm..it's been a while again since I last wrote here. So what's new with me? Well, nothing much has changed. I'm still dating Guy A. I'm still also seeing Guy E though its somehow gone too complicated. I cherish the three weeks we were ... good together. Guy D is somewhere around in the maze...though not consistently. Then there is Guy F, whom I've become pretty good friends with. I share with him my boy troubles. Haha. Then there's Guy G, who's threatening me with a kiss. I have yet to meet him. Oh and my ex likes to ask me about Kpop mp3 downloads on YM. What's up with that?


So many boys, so little time, right?


But I'd rather have one serious boy, than have a sometimes here-sometimes there bunch.

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Seoul Searchin

I haven't been writing around here for a while. The events for the past few months have been a little blurry but what's most important was making a dream of mine come true.

Ever since I got hooked on Korean TV and music, it had been one of my goals to visit Seoul and wallow in the country's culture. And this I did last Oct 15 to 24, after years of pondering about it.

I was on a high during that 10-day vacation. Money was an issue before I left, but once I got there, worries about it ceased, even for a while.

And now, I'm back to the real world to face my life once again. Seoul had seemed surreal and I know I have to go back there sometime soon.

I have more stories to tell. But for now, this shall suffice as a bookmark to what has transpired.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Clean slate

And so who's left on the list?

I'll get back to you on that. Seems like I've made wrong decisions once again. Me and my reckless heart.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I am too effin' afraid


That's my favorite word of the moment. Effin'.


I am too vulnerable. I am to chicken. I am scared.


I feel it's too good to be true. And I'm retreating to a corner where I feel I am safe.


But I fear, I have already stepped inside the battle field.


How do I defend my self without getting hurt in the process?


And add to that the effin' Korea trip is bleeding me dry ...taking the words out of his myspace status.


I am too emo these days. Happy, sad, scared.

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Is this serious or what


I've been pondering about things since Saturday.

And I can't help but feel happy and scared at the same time.

How do I get myself into this situations? Really!

Back to being vague again. Hala...

Sunday, September 06, 2009

How do I get myself into these things?


Guy E. Well, what can I say?


It's really gotten complicated.

Welcome to the world of dating.
So this is what the saying 'so many men, so little time' means.

Saturday, September 05, 2009

And then another one...

I'm going out with a new guy -- Guy E (can you still keep track?) -- tomorrow. Guy A also asked me out. As usual last minute stuff. But I turned it down. Victory? Uh...how come I don't feel like a winner? hahaha...

And that little black number I wore last Sunday at the ball will be the death of me. It's getting me into more complicated stuff. Ayayay...

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

A high school crush


I feel like a high school girl with a crush. Badette set me up with her boyfriend's friend I will now name Guy D. And I super like his eyes. And he's a pretty nice guy too.


And so now, we've progressed to being textmates. :)


I guess this is what you people are telling me ... about keeping options open. Specially now that Guy A has told me that I am free to see anyone I like. That was a bit of an ouch factor for me.


Well, I like Guy D. So there. A little competition won't hurt.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Four years

I used to anticipate the 28th. I looked forward to special times. Special moments.

But tomorrow will be different.

For it will be just another ordinary day.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I am not impressed anymore

Guy A, you're losing my interest...


And with your 'statements' lately...


I'm getting a bit bored over here.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Mixed emotions


Talking to a friend about the events that transpired last Saturday has gotten me more confused than ever.


If he's even unsure of THAT thing, what more on his feelings for me...that is what my friend is thinking. I was told not to focus on what Guy A was feeling but instead focus on how I am feeling.


Her opinion struck me. I dunno why it just made sense.


So what am I feeling? I feel numb. And embarrassed. And sad too.
Ang swerte mo Guy A ha, you're taking up a lot of space on my blog lately.

Sunday, August 09, 2009

And the plot thickens

In my drunken craziness after my boss' party, I went online at 3AM just to chat with Guy A. And with me a lil bit loosened up, I managed to persuade him to hang out with me Saturday. He told me when we had dinner last Thursday that we might not see each other over the weekend so I was feeling a bit victorious.

Saturday afternoon rolls along and he suddenly texts me he might not be able to make it. So I think, what else is new? I was so tempted to reply just 'ok' but i threw in a sad emoticon just for the heck of it. Well, well, he suddenly calls me up and tells me he was joking and would be dropping by by 4.

Coincidentally, my sister had some friends over and they decided to go to the mall. So when Guy A arrives we were alone in the apartment. Our painting session soon moves to a steamy make out session hahaha. But we stop because he tells me we might be moving a bit too fast. At first I was like 'wha? what's happening' and then I slowly come back to earth. And I realize he was right. And I'm glad we did stop before things got more complicated than it already is.

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

My realization for today

Oh-kay. To recap, the past three days are indeed quite a challenge to me. Sunday was heavy with all that I learned about my mom and her problems in the US. Monday was the same. And today was draining.

Someone disappoints. Someone turns bratty on me. And Randy asks me how I am doing. What the hell was that? Adding more insult to injury. As Manila told me, "You have no right to ask me how I feel."


And now I feel that sometimes friends, despite the time or distance, are the only people you can really rely on. Not family. Not even boyfriends or boyfriends-to-be.

Saturday, August 01, 2009

The rain ruined my Saturday


Me: Anong gusto mo tignan?

Guy A: Ikaw.

Me: Ikaw?

Guy A: Ikaw. *grin*


Guy A was supposed to come over today but because of the strong downpour, we just hung out at the mall, talked over coffee for around three hours. He asked me what else I wanted to do. Well, what is there to do inside the mall?

Then before the rains get any stronger he suggested we go home early. Eh. I still wanted to spend more time with him. But did I speak up? No. I just let him hold and kiss my hand again.

Oh he mentioned na it's good that I'm opening up to him now. So was I too quiet all this time? It's hard to put my guard down with our "situation".

So where is this all going? Still the same old question.

And I so wanted to kiss him. Pfft.

Monday, July 27, 2009

And then he calls again...


And to continue with my saga with Guy A, he calls.

And for the 4th time he confirms our Sunday movie.

And finally I see him again.

And then it's back to regular programming.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Cancelled on again

Oh I sincerely wanted him to win. However, what I don't like about him qualifying into the next round is that I get to be bumped off some other indefinite day. And I feel it's even my fault for having work on Sunday.

Sorry for my sarcastic reply. I just couldn't express nicely how really disappointed I am.

If he doesn't get in touch again, well then that just goes to show that he doesn't really like me that much.

Ps. After a few hours, he calls me up and says we're pushing through with our movie date tomorrow. goodness...

PPs. He called me this morning to cancel again. Something came up once more regarding the tournament. Why o why am I not surprised?

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

If you're not taking the 6 p.m. slot, I'm giving it to someone else

So I'm not gonna write in cryptic today. And why is that? Because so many things have been happening to me in the past few days. Yes, the angsty Patty is back with a vengeance.

Let me start off by saying once again, that I am not the most patient person in the world. I am also admittedly not the most organized person in the world but I like my schedule to be pretty accurate.

Alright, with that off my chest . . . I am going to be honest in saying yes I am back in the dating scene. And for a couple of days now, I can say that I have been pretty unhappy about my dating life. There are indeed a couple of guys lined up at my door. Not to boast but mind you I have been pretty picky about selecting who I am gonna go out with. There are guys who would text but not push through. There are guys who would really ask me out but fall short of expectations. With my adventures in dating for the past few months, I can fairly say that the book "He's Not That Into You" has now become obsolete, for guys have completely changed their dating strategies.

Okay take for example Guy A. He passed my first requirement and we quickly progressed to being constant dates. I was thrilled because we had a lot of things in common and seem to be thinking on the same wavelength. However, as we began to proceed to our nth date, things have become pretty unclear. He's acting like we are a couple when we are out on dates but he's treating me like a buddy when we are not together. Also looks like he's put me at the end of his priority list, asking me out lately on last minute dates. And not following through. You think, why shouldn't I just ask him where our dating status is leading to. But at the end of the day, one must realize that he hasn't made a move to take our relationship to the next level because of his inability to commit to anything related to me. So why should I be that demanding lil bitch who isn't even his girlfriend right? Don't get me wrong, we both have been clear that we are looking for serious relationships from the very start. I like this guy a lot. Well, I guess he doesn't like me that much. I'm not yet that important enough to make a dent in his social calendar.

Then there's Guy B. Guy B is someone from the past, an old flame should I say. He's been a topic on this blog before. Well silly old me looked him up in facebook and tada! We're instant textmates and seems like the 'spark' is still there. Can you feel another however coming up? However, he already has a girlfriend of two years. But that doesn't stop him from asking me out again. Tempting really. He's definitely fun to be with and quite yummy as I described him to a friend. But since my break-up, I have vowed not to go out with guys who are already committed because hey it also happened to me and I wouldn't want to be the girl on the other end. I pity his girlfriend really. And the other girls whose boyfriends have also hit on me.

Now, last but not the least is Guy C. He's four years muy junior and a little bit (okay, a lot) on the immature side. He does things that peeve me like using text speak when chatting (wer r u) and call me on the phone unexpectedly. What's weird about Guy C is that he's already asked me to be his girl eventhough we haven't met each other face to face. Yup, you read it right. I have told him endless times that I have to meet him first and go out with him to know my answer to his 'mahiwagang' tanong. It was a condition of mine that I would never ever break for anyone. I think he has finally getting the hint (after endless chat sessions where he would just ask me if I would be his girl and me replying no each time). He's thinking of asking me out but on the condition I would tell him if I'm okay with him or not as soon as the date ends. Oh and he also told me that it's okay for me to date other guys even if I do agree to be his girl. But he'd totally be faithful to me. Oh-kay.

The thing in common with these three guys and the others who have 'asked me out' is that they are very vague with the specific day and time they would want to go out with me. I remember Badette's rule of not going out with a guy who has asked her past Wednesday because it meant that she's just an after thought for the weekend. I am not that strict with my asking out rules but I am getting pretty peeved with all these vague dates. With Guy C however I was blunt in saying that I want him to give me specific details of our date. Don't just ask me what time I go to or get off work because my line of work is also unpredictable. I can say that I go to work from 10 a.m. to 7 p.m. but that can change because of meetings, presscons and such. However, I told Guy C that if he did tell me something definite, I will be able to manage my schedule, juggle some stuff and make exceptions for him. And he understood. And he has yet to give me a sure day of our date. Hah!

Long story short, I'm tired of guys taking me forgranted. I even told Leah that sometimes I want to rebel and go back to the old me. Maybe I'd be having some fun instead of being this prissy girl getting walked on like a doormat by these guys.

Well one thing is for sure. I won't be twiddling my thumbs at home waiting for their call.

Monday, July 20, 2009

So what now?

Feels like another dead end.
So what is a girl to do?
Time to reassess...everything.
I am disappointed, believe me.


*I want my money back...
I want my money back...
Just enjoy the show...*

Why am I writing in cryptic still?
Probably because everything I'm feeling
Is still all jumbled up inside.

Saturday, July 04, 2009

Saturday afternoon

I liked how he hugged me close and gave me a lingering kiss on top of my head.

He makes me feel special.

Even for awhile.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Darn it

I wanna run...smash into you...

Beyonce on repeat in my ears.

I promised I'm going to be just 'chill' about it.

I'm cool.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

So darn tired

I feel so sleepy.
Probably because I've been staying up real late at night for the past three days.
And I'm still in the office until now.
Pouring everything in work and chatting with friends.

Because I don't want to think about YOU.
But then again since I've written this entry, so I am thinking of YOU.

I know.
It's crazy.
Because I don't want to hold back.
And it's getting harder to do so.

Sunday, June 07, 2009

Rushing leads to incompleteness

That's what my horoscope today told me.
And I completely understand what it is saying.
It means that I have to be patient.
And trust Him.

On the other side of the news,
I admit I was bothered with the picture of Miffy Randy posted on his page.
The words 'I miss my bunny' burned.
Flash back of "movie scenes" of what could happen.
But in reality I know it would not happen.
With him it would never, ever happen.
I think my heart knows better this time.