happy birthday grace!

grace celebrated her 30th birthday at the hospital, her home for the next week or so. she finally had her back operated on and we are all happy that the operation was successful -- though she still feels very sore and can move only her fingers and toes. :)

some other things of note:

1.) its been a month already. whew. how time flies. but we feel as if we've been together for years now. finally i am happy. and i hope it stays this way for a time. if not forever(?) *lol*

2.) they gave in. they meaning the pinoycentral peeps. so yes i was a full pledged bum (but i wasnt technically since i'm still an employee of broadcasting til oct 2) for only 2 days. i just got back from my NBI clearance renewal, you get one for your employer to see if you are a convicted criminal yet you come out with a clearance with you looking like a convict on your picture. heh. i last applied for one in 2002 but nothing changed. i still looked stupid. *lmao*

3.) and all i can say is THESS...AJA! it may be a hard road ahead but sometimes you just have to take risks for you to find your true happiness. after all it is your life and not theirs. and remember we will always be here for you. if you need tips for you-know-what just let me know ;)

surprise surprise

surprise #1: guess who i bumped into at the doctor's office? jiale! we just laughed out loud when we saw each other. and of course the secret was out. hahaha...

surprise #2: i got a call again from the hr of the subsidiary i turned down. they are making a final offer later.

and is it just me or are there typos and grammatical errors in harry potter 6? am i just too grammar oc? *lol*

will update nicely soon :)

the bum and the restless

it's my second day staying home and i am BORED. i'm not very used to staring at the TV the whole day. at this very moment i'm at an internet cafe applying for jobs at jobstreet. gawd.

if i don't get out of this unemployed status soon i'm gonna go insane. any job recommendations?

:)

can't believe i would be feeling like this in the midst of the turmoil in my life right now. maybe it is the saving grace in this misery laden world of mine at the moment. if it weren't for this i would have checked myself in the mental institution right next door.

the pic came from paige pooler's bloggie. check her works out.

hay

that's the only thing i can say at the moment. that job in the offing? well the pay sucks and now i'm wondering if i should accept it. the work's harder, more responsibility and i have to go to the office earlier than the usual. and they would be at an advantage because of my experience as a writer and the contacts i have...

i really really need to find a job fast. my sister's contract at her job didn't get renewed and i don't want to add another burden to my mom who is already semi supporting me and my sister.

hay. maybe it's a sign i ship my ass off somewhere other than this company.

it's not in my stars to be a bum

i contemplated on things that i would do while being a bum. i'm not used to the idea since i have been steadily working weeks even before my college graduation up until now. my sister oriented me already, she being a professional bum for about 8 months. waking up at 12 nn then lounging around the sofa while heating up lunch. she then eats lunch watching some mundane noon time show or cartoons on nickelodeon. after that she has a choice between chatting on YM or sleeping again. if she chooses the latter, she wakes up at 5 pm, prepares dinner and waits for me to appear at the front door. she alternates the routine with chores and once in a while movie dates with friends.

but i think i'm not destined to be unemployed. because i'll be taking on a new job on the 19th. and i'm not moving very far. just a building away.

God is really good to me. :)

change comes in 3s

as i have mentioned the last time, i believe that change comes in threes. the countdown... 1) black hair 2) boyfriend and dadan...3) bye bye job!

yes, i'm part of that downsizing thing they are doing here at this god damn company at the moment and i dunno if my 100+ gross is gonna make a dent in their million dollar debt. hehe...

but then again i'm still blessed. i've got a loving BF, tons of friends who btw are scrambling all over helping me find a new job ASAP. and a mom who says its ok to be a bum once in your life.

i cried my eyes out the other night, it's hard to say good bye to the people and the place that i considered home for almost 6 years but as they say change really is unevitable.

this is my last entry here on this PC. but don't worry peeps. i'm ok now because i know there is something better in store for me out there.

pink august-sept

Buy Pink Magazine's issue this month. I have a JC Cuadrado article in it. *heh*

change yet again

ok. i'm changing my status in friendster. to in a relationship officially. :)

yeah i know you guys are gonna say "what the hell is happening to you?" or "are you going out of your mind?" or the classic "here you go again."

grace pointed this out to me eons ago. i'm not giving a chance to guys who are basically not in my league and letting guys in my league make a fool out of me. so there. i guess i'm trying out her theory. i jumbled all my ideals for a 'perfect' guy and i want to live a simple life now. not the paris hilton way but my way. i don't want the complications involved with my past relationships. no more.

i'm starting a simple relationship with this simple guy with the sincerest (hopefully) intentions for me.

black hair. boyfriend. what next?

wish me luck.

college

i'm sort of preoccupied right now. i've got this thing on draft for some time now so...pagtiyagaan niyo muna. :)

WHAT DO I MISS MOST ABOUT MY COLLEGE LIFE?

1. The lines during registration. I remember the days when i had to wake up at 3 in the am, get to school at 530 (all the way from bocaue yan ha) thinking i was one of the early birds. i was wrong. there was already a list and people slept outside the college (UP-CMC). but lining up was one big exciting party. always.

2. UP-MCO. one of the things that made me like college very much. my org since i was a sophomore and became membership committee head senior year. i thought i was a sorority girl but i was better off an org girl. :)

3. Long walks from AS to CMC then to the main library then back again. or walking from CMC to New Era when it's hard getting a ride sa SM North jeep or Pantranco jeep.

4. My comics writing, children's story writing, socio, humanities 1 and electronic news room classes. i never got lazy attending these classes. my humanities class was 7 in the morning and i regret coming to class always late.

5. The trees that line up the oval. there's just something very serene about it.

6. Camping and Nat Sci classes dahil sa crush naming si Carlos C. aka Archi. kung sino man po ang nakakaalam ng kanyang kinaroroonan balitaan niyo po kami. *lol*

7. Rodics, Beach House, Shopping Center, Lutong Bahay and Little Vinvin's. The latter tortured us to death during our breaks when we had long major classes sa CMC. No choice kumbaga.

8. Ikot and toki jeepney rides.

9. Econ 101 with winnie monsod. could i just say this class killed my average first sem of senior year?

10. film appreciation 101. also known as trips to SM City to watch a movie during the long break between Philo 1 (10 AM to 11:30 AM) and Journ 101 (1 PM to 2:30 PM). Needless to say madalas walang tao sa Journ 101 class namin.

11.Doodling on our desks sa CMC. sana andun pa si sailor jupiter ko hehehe...

12. Lantern Parade. The day i had my first drinking session. i remember drinking beer, vodka, martini and tequila all in one night at gay's house. helen getting drunk, myra laughing her ass off and fritzie making a booboo.

13. FOPC or Freshmen Orientation Program Committee. I remember my HS friend Tricia telling me that i'm so lucky to get into UP cause i will be able to watch Eraserheads whenever i want to. FOPC gave a concert back then with the Eheads headlining the show. and through the FOPC i met my future orgmates (who were our block handlers at the time) and dahil din sa FOPC nagpapakahirap ang MCO para sa points for recognition and pwesto sa steering committee.

14. trips to Katipunan. National Bookstore tambay ata kami ni ivy noon.

15. my pager! hahaha...

16. recruitment week sa org. then the membership. then the final rites. yung landslide ng applicants nung panahon namin. the drama. the siksikan sa tambayan pag GA. gosh i miss the tambayan. yung agawan sa logbook. yung tawanan about sa nakasulat sa logbook. yung mga may HD at nagkatuluyan at nagkaiwanan.

17. yung mga panlalait namin nina nei sa mga dumadaan habang nakaupo at kumakain sa may batibot sa tabi ni ate edith na nagtitinda ng fishball. i still remember jinky's classic question "Pangit ba ko?" *lol*

The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants

Maybe happiness didn't have to be something big, sweeping circumstances, about having everything in place. Maybe it was about stringing together a bunch of small pleasures. Wearing your slippers and watching the Miss Universe contest. Eating a brownie with vanilla ice cream. Getting to level seven in Dragon Master and knowing there were twenty levels to go.

Maybe happiness was just a matter of the little upticks- the traffic signal that said "walk" the second you got there- and downticks-the itchy tag at the back of your collar- that happened to every person in the course of the day. Maybe everybody had the same allotted measure of happiness within each day.

Maybe it didn't matter if you're a world famous heartthrob or a painful geek. Maybe it didn't matter if your friend was possibly dying.

Maybe you just got through it. Maybe that was all you could ask for.

i watched the adaptation of one of my fave books last night. i won tickets to the premiere and even if there was a slight change in the story (alright major. they did Lena's part different) the story still moved me like the book did. i dunno if they are planning to do the other books into movies too (there are 3 books as far as i know) but i wish they would. i recommend you watch it. oh and bring tissue. :)

major chick flick. but you learn lots. that's what i like about books/movies like this. It's about growing up and learning to understand what's happening to you then learning to accept it.

i for one know that i still have a lot of growing up to do even if i'm already 27.

ps. i totally loved bridget aka bee. she's tough and she's a hottie ;)

buks

igor tagged me yet again. (i should run faster don't you think?)

Total Number of Books Owned : i've bought books since 5th grade. i dunno the exact number. estimate it at 100.

Last Book I Bought: The Second Summer of the Sisterhood by Ann Brashares (sequel to The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants)

Last Book I Read : I reread One Hot Moment, a compilation of short stories (i like books like this :) )

Five books that mean a lot to me: The Travelling Pants series, Catcher in the Rye, the first Sweet Valley Twins book i bought (#16 Second Best), White Oleander, Family Album. The list might change cause i can't actually think now. hehe...

The 5 next brave souls (my chosen ones) to post this meme to their blogs are:
1. Gela
2. Leah Lao
3. Jopen
4. Ivy Wu
5. Dhing

spot the difference

btw...

i'm still in the office. finishing up my deadline. and watching rockstar inxs. i'm so frustrated. my head is bleeding from thinking up of too many verbs and adjectives. and distracted because of that (the thing that i don't want to fully talk about just yet). i have repressed that for a few days now and i dunno why its creeping back. i hate it, hate it, hate it.

mig's encore performance with jordis and marty blew me away.

this is my third entry for the day. first time.

...resist the attraction of bad habits.

that's what my horoscope is for today. and chelo i have a theory (yet again) that the problem i was talking to you about may turn into just that. my attraction to never ending bad relationships. i'm thinking it may end in another disaster. if it isn't already.

*sniff*

Seven

i was planning to do a rockstar inxs post today but igor tagged me so...

Seven things that scare you:
1. illness
2. lizards and slimy stuff
3. being alone
4. being hit by a car
5. SLCs (suspicious looking characters FYI)
6. bankruptcy
7. death

Seven things you like the most:
1. TV
2. the internet
3. boys :)
4. ukay ukays
5. music
6. fashion
7. anime

Seven important things in your bedroom:
1. cd player
2. clothes
3. cds
4. mirror
5. weighing scale
6. bags
7. kikay kit

Seven random facts about you:
1. It takes me 10 mins to an hour to get dressed, depending if i got my outfit together in my head the night before or i make a sudden change of get up in the morning.
2. I'm trying to catch up on animax hehe... can someone explain to me lunar legend tsukihime?
3. I write to make a living. I write for myself in this blog. :)
4. I'm a closet geek (according to quentin) but i'm not really hiding my geekiness. i just don't show it much because of the lack in oppurtunity *lol*
5. I'm thinking of getting a second job because writing ain't buying me stuff and paying the bills anymore. *sniff*
6. I like doing my assignments last minute. yes i like cramming.
7. I like kissing. mwahaha...

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. find my one true love (naks)
2. finalize if i want kids or not (mwehehe)
3. Have my own business
4. travel the world
5. swim with the dolphins
6. see my mom
7. get thin

Seven things you can do:
1.write
2.draw
3.dance
4.cut my bangs
5.trouble shoot tech stuff
6.boss my sisters around
7.make a fool of myself out of love

Seven things you can't do:
1. ride a bike
2. do practical jokes/tell a lie (im pretty bad at this, you should ask my friends)
3. be cruel to animals
4. eat crab
5. swim well
6. confronting people
7. do drugs

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
1. smiling eyes
2. nice teeth
3. clean shoes
4. has a sense of humor
5. can understand me for who I am
6. great conversationalist
7. good kisser :)

Seven things you say the most:
1. Asus
2. Nyek
3. kainis
4. yeah
5. star magic...(when i answer the phone sa office wahaha)
6. assuming (joyride word for the month)
7. cuss word/s

Seven celeb crushes (whether local or foreign):
1. Kim Rae Won
2. Ken Chu
3. Michael Vartan
4. That CSI NY guy in glasses
5. Chad Michael Murray
6. Jonathan Bennet (mean girls fame)
7. Jo In Sung

Seven people you want to see to take this quiz:
1. Lelai
2. Thess
3. Quentin
4. Kalypso
5. Rose
6. Nhila
7. Chelo

bad

this loneliness is holding me back. i am fighting. but it has me struggling. i can't help but think. something is wrong with me. there are simply days when i can't deal.

i am strong. i can do this. but someone's stepping on my damn gown.

*waah*

silly me

silly me again. my sister bought home this silly hat. so i had to do a silly stunt. with her silly bear. hence the silly picture. i have no other silly adventures over the weekend, except maybe that one during eng's birthday party (tagay nga ng isang grand ma!) drunk silly me asking for a silly thing. getting it and ending with a silly nothing.

silly, silly me. :)

ye olde blog to a different post

i visited my old blog at my space. if you wanna see more of lokaret me circa march 2004 click here.

i had to laugh at my november 28 entry.

i placed a different entry here a while a go. but bumping into this poem(?) i've decided to post this instead.

Have you Ever Made a Girl CRY?

A girl won't cry easily,
Except in front of the person who she loves the
most, she becomes weak.

A girl won't cry easily, only WHEN SHE LOVES
YOU THE MOST, SHE PUTS DOWN HER EGO.
Guys, if a girl cries because of you, please hold
her hands firmly,
she's the one who would stay with you for the
rest of your life.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you, PLEASE DON'T
GIVE HER UP, maybe because of your decision, you
ruined her life.

When she cries right in front of you,
When she cries because of you,
Look into her eyes,
CAN YOU FEEL THE PAIN AND HURT SHE'S
FEELING? Think.

Who was the girl who cried with pure SINCERITY,
In front of you, And because of you?

She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not because she wants sympathy or pity,
She cries...
Because CRYING SILENTLY IS NO LONGER
POSSIBLE,the pain, hurt, and agony have become
too big aburden to be kept inside.

Guys,
Think about it,
If a girl cries her heart out to you,
And all because of you,
IT'S TIME TO LOOK BACK ON WHAT YOU HAVE
DONE,
Only you will know the answer to it...

Do consider it,
Because ONE DAY,
IT MAYBE TOO LATE FOR REGRETS,
It may be too late to say "I'm sorry".

To my friends...
Ponder this message seriously.
Don`t do this to a girl,
You may regret it for the rest of your life.
Maybe in your life,
"SHE'S THE ONLY ONE WHO LOVED YOU THE
MOST."

of rain and burger patties

it's another rainy day. i don't like what i am wearing today. i changed my wardrobe plans the last minute because of this darn rain. bye to the plans of wearing my black pumps, hello to my dirty adidas sneaks.

actually i have nothing to say today. except that last night during our usual joyride trip to muntinlupa, we decided to drop by wendy's along boni. i could have gone home because i was already right at my doorstep *lol* but who could resist wasting some precious sleep time? while thinking of what to order, we chanced upon the ad above. it's amusing to see my name, as a fast food entree. i thought all along that burger patties were spelled as pattie but i guess the singular form is really patty. i was even irked before, being referred to as Hamburger Patty. para akong merienda *lol* got used to that by now though,with the other Patty combinations they have thought of (anti-patty-ka, fatty fats, patty acids, patty cake, patty-ma, patty-pat, patty-bong, patty betita and patty laurel).

and what's funny was that you can get me for only 20 pesos more. now is that a bargain or what? :)

ps. after a few minutes into this post i googled the right spelling of the pattie/patty. well what do you know, both are right.

from merriam-webster online:
Main Entry: pat·ty
Variant(s): also pat·tie /'pa-tE/
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural patties
Etymology: French pâté pâté
1 : a little pie
2 a : a small flat cake of chopped food (a hamburger patty) b : a small flat candy (a peppermint patty)
3 : patty shell