pink august-sept

Buy Pink Magazine's issue this month. I have a JC Cuadrado article in it. *heh*

change yet again

ok. i'm changing my status in friendster. to in a relationship officially. :)

yeah i know you guys are gonna say "what the hell is happening to you?" or "are you going out of your mind?" or the classic "here you go again."

grace pointed this out to me eons ago. i'm not giving a chance to guys who are basically not in my league and letting guys in my league make a fool out of me. so there. i guess i'm trying out her theory. i jumbled all my ideals for a 'perfect' guy and i want to live a simple life now. not the paris hilton way but my way. i don't want the complications involved with my past relationships. no more.

i'm starting a simple relationship with this simple guy with the sincerest (hopefully) intentions for me.

black hair. boyfriend. what next?

wish me luck.

college

i'm sort of preoccupied right now. i've got this thing on draft for some time now so...pagtiyagaan niyo muna. :)

WHAT DO I MISS MOST ABOUT MY COLLEGE LIFE?

1. The lines during registration. I remember the days when i had to wake up at 3 in the am, get to school at 530 (all the way from bocaue yan ha) thinking i was one of the early birds. i was wrong. there was already a list and people slept outside the college (UP-CMC). but lining up was one big exciting party. always.

2. UP-MCO. one of the things that made me like college very much. my org since i was a sophomore and became membership committee head senior year. i thought i was a sorority girl but i was better off an org girl. :)

3. Long walks from AS to CMC then to the main library then back again. or walking from CMC to New Era when it's hard getting a ride sa SM North jeep or Pantranco jeep.

4. My comics writing, children's story writing, socio, humanities 1 and electronic news room classes. i never got lazy attending these classes. my humanities class was 7 in the morning and i regret coming to class always late.

5. The trees that line up the oval. there's just something very serene about it.

6. Camping and Nat Sci classes dahil sa crush naming si Carlos C. aka Archi. kung sino man po ang nakakaalam ng kanyang kinaroroonan balitaan niyo po kami. *lol*

7. Rodics, Beach House, Shopping Center, Lutong Bahay and Little Vinvin's. The latter tortured us to death during our breaks when we had long major classes sa CMC. No choice kumbaga.

8. Ikot and toki jeepney rides.

9. Econ 101 with winnie monsod. could i just say this class killed my average first sem of senior year?

10. film appreciation 101. also known as trips to SM City to watch a movie during the long break between Philo 1 (10 AM to 11:30 AM) and Journ 101 (1 PM to 2:30 PM). Needless to say madalas walang tao sa Journ 101 class namin.

11.Doodling on our desks sa CMC. sana andun pa si sailor jupiter ko hehehe...

12. Lantern Parade. The day i had my first drinking session. i remember drinking beer, vodka, martini and tequila all in one night at gay's house. helen getting drunk, myra laughing her ass off and fritzie making a booboo.

13. FOPC or Freshmen Orientation Program Committee. I remember my HS friend Tricia telling me that i'm so lucky to get into UP cause i will be able to watch Eraserheads whenever i want to. FOPC gave a concert back then with the Eheads headlining the show. and through the FOPC i met my future orgmates (who were our block handlers at the time) and dahil din sa FOPC nagpapakahirap ang MCO para sa points for recognition and pwesto sa steering committee.

14. trips to Katipunan. National Bookstore tambay ata kami ni ivy noon.

15. my pager! hahaha...

16. recruitment week sa org. then the membership. then the final rites. yung landslide ng applicants nung panahon namin. the drama. the siksikan sa tambayan pag GA. gosh i miss the tambayan. yung agawan sa logbook. yung tawanan about sa nakasulat sa logbook. yung mga may HD at nagkatuluyan at nagkaiwanan.

17. yung mga panlalait namin nina nei sa mga dumadaan habang nakaupo at kumakain sa may batibot sa tabi ni ate edith na nagtitinda ng fishball. i still remember jinky's classic question "Pangit ba ko?" *lol*

The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants

Maybe happiness didn't have to be something big, sweeping circumstances, about having everything in place. Maybe it was about stringing together a bunch of small pleasures. Wearing your slippers and watching the Miss Universe contest. Eating a brownie with vanilla ice cream. Getting to level seven in Dragon Master and knowing there were twenty levels to go.

Maybe happiness was just a matter of the little upticks- the traffic signal that said "walk" the second you got there- and downticks-the itchy tag at the back of your collar- that happened to every person in the course of the day. Maybe everybody had the same allotted measure of happiness within each day.

Maybe it didn't matter if you're a world famous heartthrob or a painful geek. Maybe it didn't matter if your friend was possibly dying.

Maybe you just got through it. Maybe that was all you could ask for.

i watched the adaptation of one of my fave books last night. i won tickets to the premiere and even if there was a slight change in the story (alright major. they did Lena's part different) the story still moved me like the book did. i dunno if they are planning to do the other books into movies too (there are 3 books as far as i know) but i wish they would. i recommend you watch it. oh and bring tissue. :)

major chick flick. but you learn lots. that's what i like about books/movies like this. It's about growing up and learning to understand what's happening to you then learning to accept it.

i for one know that i still have a lot of growing up to do even if i'm already 27.

ps. i totally loved bridget aka bee. she's tough and she's a hottie ;)

buks

igor tagged me yet again. (i should run faster don't you think?)

Total Number of Books Owned : i've bought books since 5th grade. i dunno the exact number. estimate it at 100.

Last Book I Bought: The Second Summer of the Sisterhood by Ann Brashares (sequel to The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants)

Last Book I Read : I reread One Hot Moment, a compilation of short stories (i like books like this :) )

Five books that mean a lot to me: The Travelling Pants series, Catcher in the Rye, the first Sweet Valley Twins book i bought (#16 Second Best), White Oleander, Family Album. The list might change cause i can't actually think now. hehe...

The 5 next brave souls (my chosen ones) to post this meme to their blogs are:
1. Gela
2. Leah Lao
3. Jopen
4. Ivy Wu
5. Dhing

spot the difference

btw...

i'm still in the office. finishing up my deadline. and watching rockstar inxs. i'm so frustrated. my head is bleeding from thinking up of too many verbs and adjectives. and distracted because of that (the thing that i don't want to fully talk about just yet). i have repressed that for a few days now and i dunno why its creeping back. i hate it, hate it, hate it.

mig's encore performance with jordis and marty blew me away.

this is my third entry for the day. first time.

...resist the attraction of bad habits.

that's what my horoscope is for today. and chelo i have a theory (yet again) that the problem i was talking to you about may turn into just that. my attraction to never ending bad relationships. i'm thinking it may end in another disaster. if it isn't already.

*sniff*

Seven

i was planning to do a rockstar inxs post today but igor tagged me so...

Seven things that scare you:
1. illness
2. lizards and slimy stuff
3. being alone
4. being hit by a car
5. SLCs (suspicious looking characters FYI)
6. bankruptcy
7. death

Seven things you like the most:
1. TV
2. the internet
3. boys :)
4. ukay ukays
5. music
6. fashion
7. anime

Seven important things in your bedroom:
1. cd player
2. clothes
3. cds
4. mirror
5. weighing scale
6. bags
7. kikay kit

Seven random facts about you:
1. It takes me 10 mins to an hour to get dressed, depending if i got my outfit together in my head the night before or i make a sudden change of get up in the morning.
2. I'm trying to catch up on animax hehe... can someone explain to me lunar legend tsukihime?
3. I write to make a living. I write for myself in this blog. :)
4. I'm a closet geek (according to quentin) but i'm not really hiding my geekiness. i just don't show it much because of the lack in oppurtunity *lol*
5. I'm thinking of getting a second job because writing ain't buying me stuff and paying the bills anymore. *sniff*
6. I like doing my assignments last minute. yes i like cramming.
7. I like kissing. mwahaha...

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. find my one true love (naks)
2. finalize if i want kids or not (mwehehe)
3. Have my own business
4. travel the world
5. swim with the dolphins
6. see my mom
7. get thin

Seven things you can do:
1.write
2.draw
3.dance
4.cut my bangs
5.trouble shoot tech stuff
6.boss my sisters around
7.make a fool of myself out of love

Seven things you can't do:
1. ride a bike
2. do practical jokes/tell a lie (im pretty bad at this, you should ask my friends)
3. be cruel to animals
4. eat crab
5. swim well
6. confronting people
7. do drugs

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
1. smiling eyes
2. nice teeth
3. clean shoes
4. has a sense of humor
5. can understand me for who I am
6. great conversationalist
7. good kisser :)

Seven things you say the most:
1. Asus
2. Nyek
3. kainis
4. yeah
5. star magic...(when i answer the phone sa office wahaha)
6. assuming (joyride word for the month)
7. cuss word/s

Seven celeb crushes (whether local or foreign):
1. Kim Rae Won
2. Ken Chu
3. Michael Vartan
4. That CSI NY guy in glasses
5. Chad Michael Murray
6. Jonathan Bennet (mean girls fame)
7. Jo In Sung

Seven people you want to see to take this quiz:
1. Lelai
2. Thess
3. Quentin
4. Kalypso
5. Rose
6. Nhila
7. Chelo

bad

this loneliness is holding me back. i am fighting. but it has me struggling. i can't help but think. something is wrong with me. there are simply days when i can't deal.

i am strong. i can do this. but someone's stepping on my damn gown.

*waah*

silly me

silly me again. my sister bought home this silly hat. so i had to do a silly stunt. with her silly bear. hence the silly picture. i have no other silly adventures over the weekend, except maybe that one during eng's birthday party (tagay nga ng isang grand ma!) drunk silly me asking for a silly thing. getting it and ending with a silly nothing.

silly, silly me. :)

ye olde blog to a different post

i visited my old blog at my space. if you wanna see more of lokaret me circa march 2004 click here.

i had to laugh at my november 28 entry.

i placed a different entry here a while a go. but bumping into this poem(?) i've decided to post this instead.

Have you Ever Made a Girl CRY?

A girl won't cry easily,
Except in front of the person who she loves the
most, she becomes weak.

A girl won't cry easily, only WHEN SHE LOVES
YOU THE MOST, SHE PUTS DOWN HER EGO.
Guys, if a girl cries because of you, please hold
her hands firmly,
she's the one who would stay with you for the
rest of your life.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you, PLEASE DON'T
GIVE HER UP, maybe because of your decision, you
ruined her life.

When she cries right in front of you,
When she cries because of you,
Look into her eyes,
CAN YOU FEEL THE PAIN AND HURT SHE'S
FEELING? Think.

Who was the girl who cried with pure SINCERITY,
In front of you, And because of you?

She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not because she wants sympathy or pity,
She cries...
Because CRYING SILENTLY IS NO LONGER
POSSIBLE,the pain, hurt, and agony have become
too big aburden to be kept inside.

Guys,
Think about it,
If a girl cries her heart out to you,
And all because of you,
IT'S TIME TO LOOK BACK ON WHAT YOU HAVE
DONE,
Only you will know the answer to it...

Do consider it,
Because ONE DAY,
IT MAYBE TOO LATE FOR REGRETS,
It may be too late to say "I'm sorry".

To my friends...
Ponder this message seriously.
Don`t do this to a girl,
You may regret it for the rest of your life.
Maybe in your life,
"SHE'S THE ONLY ONE WHO LOVED YOU THE
MOST."

of rain and burger patties

it's another rainy day. i don't like what i am wearing today. i changed my wardrobe plans the last minute because of this darn rain. bye to the plans of wearing my black pumps, hello to my dirty adidas sneaks.

actually i have nothing to say today. except that last night during our usual joyride trip to muntinlupa, we decided to drop by wendy's along boni. i could have gone home because i was already right at my doorstep *lol* but who could resist wasting some precious sleep time? while thinking of what to order, we chanced upon the ad above. it's amusing to see my name, as a fast food entree. i thought all along that burger patties were spelled as pattie but i guess the singular form is really patty. i was even irked before, being referred to as Hamburger Patty. para akong merienda *lol* got used to that by now though,with the other Patty combinations they have thought of (anti-patty-ka, fatty fats, patty acids, patty cake, patty-ma, patty-pat, patty-bong, patty betita and patty laurel).

and what's funny was that you can get me for only 20 pesos more. now is that a bargain or what? :)

ps. after a few minutes into this post i googled the right spelling of the pattie/patty. well what do you know, both are right.

from merriam-webster online:
Main Entry: pat·ty
Variant(s): also pat·tie /'pa-tE/
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural patties
Etymology: French pâté pâté
1 : a little pie
2 a : a small flat cake of chopped food (a hamburger patty) b : a small flat candy (a peppermint patty)
3 : patty shell

spilling the beans

i'm having a hard time admitting something to a friend. i just can't explain it. the words are stuck in my throat. my mind is screaming the whole fucking sentence but my mouth is on mute.

but maybe the reason why i can't spit it out is that i haven't accepted that 'thing' myself. i'm in denial.

some firsts...

FIRST thing u did this morning: check my cellphone for the time (woke up 3 mins before the alarm.)
FIRST thing to do before going to sleep: brush my teeth
FIRST pet: goldfish. uh i don't remember the name anymore.
FIRST primary school: Our Lady of Grace Academy
FIRST alcoholic drink u had: beer from my lolo's glass. but yung real drink was i think vodka.
FIRST time u entered a bar: err i'm a late bloomer. 4th year college na i think.
FIRST time u were sent to the principal for disciplinary action:
never! -- i'm such a goody goody.
FIRST big crush: oh boy. oh boy.
FIRST record u bought: i think it was a new kids on the block tape if i'm not mistaken.
FIRST musical instrument u learned to play: err...cymbals?
FIRST concert u watched: concerts sa school. haha pathetic.
FIRST sport u played: habulan
FIRST terrible fight: i'm a peace loving person.
FIRST best friend: Lucille
FIRST friend's wedding u've attended: joy espinocilla's i think.
FIRST person who greeted u on your last birthday: jiale
FIRST collection: stationaries
FIRST time u saw a ghost: i haven't really.
FIRST roller coaster ride: geez does the fiesta carnival count? *lol*
FIRST ambition: i think it was to be a cashier. or a teacher.
FIRST job: editorial assistant na all around.
FIRST thing u bought with your 1st salary: clothes
FIRST thing u bought today: MRT ticket
FIRST person u hated: Sheryl Cruz hahaha
LAST name: Ramirez
LAST gimmick: Anna's birthday
LAST concert u watched: tagal na Black Eyed Peas pa ata
LAST book you bought: The Second Summer of The Travelling Pants
LAST thing you bought: green bayo jacket
LAST tv show watched: Battle Shinhwa on Arirang
LAST movie you watched: If Only
LAST song listened: Waiting In Vain MYMP version
LAST argument: on the cel, with my mom because of my eldest sister's probs -- again.

feel free to add some more first questions ;)

fell in love with a boy

Fell in love with a boy
I fell in love once and almost completely
He's in love with the world
And sometimes these feelings can be so misleading
He turns and says, "Are you alright?"
Oh, I must be fine cause my heart's still beating
Come and kiss me by the riverside,
Sarah says it's cool, she don't consider it cheating

the princess stares out the window, with joss stone playing on her cd player, high in the turrets of her castle. she sees cinderella's and rapunzel's castle in the yonder. she wonders. "how come they had it easy? cindy loosing a slipper and rapunzel just drapping her hair? how come i get to kiss frogs?"

Red hair with a curl
Mellow roll for the flavor and the eyes were peepin
Can't keep away from the boy
The two sides of my brain need to have a meeting
Can't think of anything to do
My left brain knows all of love is fleeting
He's just lookin for somethin new
I said it once before but it bears repeating

the princess sees sleeping beauty in her carriage, talking to belle. she muses some more. "how come aurora doesn't do anything but sleep yet she gets her prince charming? belle had it worse falling for a beast yet he turned out to be the gentlest prince of all? how come i get to kiss princes with a lot of princesses?"

Can't think of anything to do
My left brain knows all of love is fleeting
He's just lookin for somethin new
I said it once before but it bears repeating

"is it a curse?" the princess writes (or types that is) on her journal. "hmm..." the princess should be happy with all her princess friends and blessings yet there's this void, a space that's longing to be filled. "some day my prince will come..." the princess hums.

Oooh oooh oooh...

please bear with the mood monster some more.

brooding --- again.

the moody monster is back. :)

waah...

i'm making a fool out of myself again. put me in a straight jacket. argh. to the bat cave! and please throw the key away.

i relate

i watched ...ing for the third time last night. it was pretty late already but still i wanted to see kim rae won's gorgeous face. and i was in a brooding mood. 'twas a sad love story but watching it this time around made me think again. about my life. and love. lately romance movies seem to be talking to me. as if each word, of each line and each action are hitting me like a ton of bricks. i remember before i find movies like that cute. just that. but now i feel, i relate. i have realized that my journey has a long, long way to go. it hasn't ended, it has only begun.

i don't even know what ...ing means but now i can relate.