Ugh.

"...I hate the feeling that I can't do anything about something when I know I could but shouldn't..."

It's not the end of the world...

The world was supposed to end at around 6pm yesterday. However I didn't even thought about it when I said yes to two dates today with friends old and new. My high school best friend Glody messaged me the other day and asked me to lunch in Eastwood. Sadly our other best friend, Kristine didn't respond to her message so it was just the two of us. We had a great laugh as always and it was great hanging out at her place, which I was surprised to know she had. We are all grown up after all. I just can't help but remember us three gushing over Teen Beat Magazines at Glody's parents' house or ordering pizza so we can get to see the cute delivery guy. Sometimes I wish things were as simple as we were in high school.

Then early evening I met with the Pex peeps. We decided to watch Fast 5 and have a few drinks after near my place. The movie was great (the action scenes were pretty exciting) and we had a nice time chatting over a few bottles of beer. I was also glad Maggie was there. We knew of each other's problems and although we didn't discuss things at length, we understood what the other felt deep inside. Knowing it's time to laugh even though we feel things would never be the same again.

People always try to predict the end of days, but for me this day only proves that it's not hard to guess that I have great friends whom I can rely on when I need them.

It's 3AM Sunday. The world is still here. I'm still here.

I miss this

One of the best feelings in the world is when you ’re hugging a person you love and they hug you back even tighter.

Today...

I wanted to hold your hand. But I know it would hurt me more... I just clenched my fist and smiled. I'm fine. Just fine.

Lonely

I'm so lonely...

Of fingers and eye glasses

Ouch. My finger got caught in the elevator a few minutes ago. These things have sensors supposedly but as I tried to stop the door from closing on someone, my middle finger got caught. I thought it broke. It's painful. It's actually stinging still. I think it's gonna have a bruise later.

Met up with old friend (yeah i call him that) yesterday. We're now both wearing glasses. Funny how I was shy to show up wearing my nerdy glasses and he shows up wearing his too. Had fun. Same old vibe. Good times.

PS. my finger is swelling now. :(

It's raining

Nerdy

My new glasses. Finally resigned to wearing glasses for the meantime. I miss my contact lenses. And the thin, no glare, uv protected lens are so expensive. T____T. But I'd rather wear glasses than go blind. So welcome the nerd back.

Dinner tonight

I bought this in Taiwan last year. And I forgot I still had it. It still tasted alright. I just ate a few pieces though. It packs a whopping 441 calories/bag. Now I feel like I gotta run again.

Aigoo

Relationships Are Fragile

This is an excerpt from an online friend's blog, where I often go to and read to get some peace of mind. Thanks again Joy for the words of wisdom.

Relationships are fragile. The reason why we often hurt more the ones who love us most is because we do not realize this.

We take for granted the people who are always there for us and we care not to be as careful with their feelings as we are with people we hardly know.

A careless word. A negligent irrespectful act. We often think we can get away with anything when we are with the people who love us.

While it is true that they will extend to us their utmost understanding, it is also true that they are but human beings after all.

They get hurt. And they get hurt the most by the people they love the most.
Relationships are fragile. It is far easier to protect it and to take care of it rather than to mend it when it is already broken into a million shattered parts.

Must we spend our precious time trying to gather the broken pieces? Or should we rather spend our moments checking our tongues, saying words of encouragement, holding the hands of the people who truly matter to us?

Relationships are fragile. They are gifts to be cherished and protected and taken care of as much as we take care of our own hearts.

Strangers

A lot of people have urged me to watch this. Ugh. *tear*

Everything said is true though.

More than 10 hours

I'm just about to leave the office today. I have been here since 9am for a seminar. I just remembered that a while ago when an officemate mentioned on facebook that I have been here like forever today.

Because of our final presentation to the Execom tomorrow (will be facing the gods), we had to finish and polish our team report. And our managing director said, we are the only team chosen to present in Olympus. Pressure right?

Then I still had to finish stuff needed for the site tomorrow. Hence, I'm just about to shut my PC down.

Oh and I have to be here again by 8am. In a spiffy outfit.

The things you do to forget heartbreak.

TTFN.

Well Done

Saturday

Someone asked me out. I said yes. But said no last minute. I can't force it. Maybe I'm not just ready yet.

I still think of you.

Words in my head...

You had my heart and soul, but you paid it with a beating...

Retail therapy

:((

After I lost my ID, my wallet gets stolen this time.

Ang malas ko talaga.

Monday blues

If you want to know how much I love you, try catching raindrops; the ones you catch are how much you love me, and the ones you miss are how much I love you.

Hurting

“Do you know the most surprising thing about heartache? It doesn’t actually kill you. Like a bullet to the heart, or a head-on car wreck, it should. When someone you’ve promised to cherish forever says, “I never loved you,” it should kill you instantly. You shouldn’t have to wake up day after day after that, trying to understand how in the world you didn’t know.

“Sometimes when our friends ask us if we’re okay, we tend to lie, because we know that telling them the whole story is just going to break our heart once more. So we might as well just lie and say we’re fine.”