Sniff

I am officially sick today. But I still have to go to work. I need the money. Sigh. Sniff.


And you didn't call. when you said you will. :(

One hour

We only had an hour to see each other.

And I'm happy I made the Krispy Kreme monster happy.

Love love love. :)

:(

My face is all blotchy. my eyes are all red. got crumpled and wet tissues on my desk. And I want to go to the bathroom and pee. But they would see that I have been crying so I'll just sit here a little while longer.

Waaaah

After spending almost three weekends with Ian, I am having a withdrawal.


I miss him.

Hahaha

Spent quality time with Ian over the weekend.

The part I like best was when we laughed together. And we laughed a lot.

Love. :)

Sulky

"There's always a little truth behind every 'I'm just kidding', a little emotion behind every 'I don't care', and a pain behind every 'It's okay'."

I feel fat

After shedding almost 30++ pounds over the past year, i think im getting fat again.

I've been eating non stop because of this certain person.

He's been keeping me company these past few days and he's stuffing my face endlessly.

and doing other things. that keep me smiling constantly :)

It's hard to keep the weight down when you're feeling this happy.

I think I need to go to the gym.

T_T

I'm supposed to be feeling happy today, but how come I feel like crying?

Stolen shots

Taken by Ian. Saturday lunch. My two-day birthday celebration.

Masaya ako alam mo ba yun ha? Kahit tinatawag mo akong chow chow. Lolz.

Warm and toasty...

...ears. I want one kahit walang winter sa Pilipinas.

Adjusting

I'm always thinking what he's up to.

I don't wanna be a demanding girlfriend.

But I'm not used to silence.

Get over my fears.

I guess we are both adjusting.

And I have to keep my feelings from overwhelming him.

I dread nights and weekends...

Because I sorely miss you.

Late lunch

"Can we see each other for lunch?"

I was in a sulky mood. And Ian instantly knew I was in a sour mood. We usually joked about meeting for lunch but it was not really possible me working in Quezon City while he worked in Alabang. But I was taken by surprise when he said he was serious.

He had a teambuilding to go to but he traveled for an hour and a half to be with me for three hours then an hour and a half again back to his office.

I just felt sad today. I even felt like crying when I sat down in front of my desk this morning. But being with him has blown the dark clouds away. I appreciate all that he has done to cheer me up today. I am truly blessed to have him now in my life.

Love has found me

Ian, you make me happy. :)

Six months...

into 2010. how time flies.

someone said i should write here more often.

so what should i write about today?

what has happened to me in the last six months...

well, i think i feel better now.

i think a year was enough for me to heal.

Hi...

This is me now, forcing lil ol' Simba the puppet to kiss me.

Imagine this

The words ‘I don’t know’
Echoed in my head
Like the sound of silence
When I dialled your number
Or wrote you a letter
Everytime I close my eyes
To sleep
I die countless deaths
While feeling hot tears roll down my cheeks
Reminding me that I am still breathing
Before the alarm sounds
I roll out of bed to tell myself
I am awake but I really need to dream
My fingers fly
Writing you words of sorrow and love
Yet my heart plummets
Remembering your empty promises
Calling myself stupid
For thinking that maybe
Just maybe
There is something left of us.

I choose to celebrate the Chinese New Year...

instead of Heart's Day.

According to Cherry, I need to find a 'dog friend' as a lucky charm for the year of the tiger. So where do I look for that?

Things with the new guy aren't working out. He's a nice guy and all but the heart's not really into it. I don't want to settle. I hate that.

I've met a lot of new friends lately. And this one special person. He makes my heart beat fast. But we're friends. Very good friends. It's been sometime since I've had this kind of friendship. Hope it lasts for a long time.

So, no heartaches, no heart breaks this V-day.

Hope you don't get yours all too excited or too cracked up.

I'm gonna mope around work tomorrow. Let's see what happens.

Tikoy anyone?

new dilemma

New year, new guy, new dilemma.

a super nice guy. however, he doesn't meet your standards. you go out. you know he likes you. but you don't feel the same. you think hard. and then again.

if you say yes, could you be settling? if you say no, you turn out to be a villain. and here i thought conventional 'ligaw' will be much, much easier.

hello

well it's the new year and i'm down with allergies. and i realized that i'm allergic to apples. which is quite sad. i'm asleep most of the time since sunday and i hope i manage to go to work again tomorrow.

everything's quite complicated with guy e now. and i think the end for us is near. sad yet maybe liberating.

i wish i can find him soon. loneliness just gets the better of me sometimes.